Reconnection

Feeling - Regret?
Listening to - Vocaloid

12/8/2024

gaahhh,, theres this dude that i used to like, lance. I don't like him like anymore but I still want to talk to him!! The thing is there was this big ass drama between our friends and shit, and for good reason I ghosted him. But at the same time i regretted it because honestly I liked talkinh to him. In the span of those 2 years he didn reach out to me one, all I remmebr was being called attention seeking. I self-sabotaged too hard that year so I drove everybody away.. god. Honestly I just want to talk to him, one more time. I sound like a cheesy hopless romantic but i just i dunno. Well! That's something im gonna obsess over for another month. All i have is his facebook, but he deactivated it so I can't apologize for what I did!! I was stupid back then but whatever I hope he like magically comes to my website and sees this LMFAO. Okay it feels better typing this out because i litterally have NOBODY to talk about this to.

Tired....

Feeling - exhausted
Listening to - Lana Del Rey

12/7/2024

I just locked the fuck in and finished this thingy. This week has been fine!!!!! I'm back into lana and I really love her music. I'm a little scared of her fans because I went onto pinterest and saw alot of ed and weird age play stuff. I'm not too surprised judging by the themes of her songs I'm just a bit taken aback from all the weird skinny small girls. What else.. piki was down for a while.. I don't really use piki as much since theres not too much of a reason for me to be on it. I kinda just lurk there and hope people don't try and kill eachother over two stupid things. Also I think I have a weird obession with people liking me so i will NO longer check the front page to see if im there ..okay end of my thoughts i will lock in again