I enjoy symbolism in songs, especially
ones where they tell a good story instead of just trying to make it appealing towards the masses. I
do not enjoy souless art. You can take time in writing lyrics or painting but if your main goal is
just to get more sales then is it really art?? Idk im also just kinda picky when it comes to media.
Whether thats music, art, or movies (im very picky with movies). Thats really it. I'm not good at
explaining what i like and symbolism so if you want to talk to me abt shit like that it'll be
boring. Also joseph gordon levitt has been on my mind and i need to have photos to accompany text so
theres just gonna be a shit ton of photos of him
Hayden Silas Anhedönia : Literally so inlove with all
of her art. She's an autistic, trans singer, songwriter, record producer and a model from Perry,
Florida. I love how she is able to express raw emotions in her songs and how she layers sounds to
create a story within the song. Her voice is very soothing and i love almost every single one of her
songs!!
About You - 1975 / 4.5 
By:Ethel Cain / Released: 8/8/25
this album is so good i cried hard listen to it, I have such a strong connection to this..
as my willoughby tucker is also gone. sobs, Me and ethel cain ( the character not the
artist) have so much in common. This album is so so so so beautiful, every song is amazing.
it's slow, loving, sad, depressing. It's like after an argument with your lover, staring out
of the window as the rain pours, thinking about nothing but how it would be better if you
could understand them better. You're too lethargic to pick up the bottle or lighter, so
you're just standing there watching the trees move, alone. Although I do understand
Willoughby's side of everything, unfortunantly I will always be Ethel. I am way too involved
with this story line so after this will contain spoilers of the story, my interpretation,
and my (horrible) experience with love.
The song janie is about ethel's best (and only) friend, who gets a boyfriend. Ethel is a
very inseure girl that can't let go. she's scared that her friend's going to leave her, and
at the end she tells Janie that if she doesn't want her anymore to just leave. At the same
time, ethel is longing for her still, that the least Janie could do is to come visit her
sometimes. Then ending the song telling Janie's boyfriend "I know she's your girl now / but she was my girl first / She was my girl first " I understand that ethel is supposed to act more mature for her age but for me I cant help
but sympathise with her. I was never friends with anybody, I only had one friend. Her moving
away from me was devastating to me, Mariah please move back i miss you (╥﹏╥)
Next song is an Instrumental, Willoughby's Theme. I think this is the beginning of their
relationship, at first its a piano then a guitar enters, which I interpret it as Willoughby
entering Ethels life. Like a strong masculine presence that comforts her.
Fuck me eyes is a song about Holly Reddick, a girl in Ethel and Willougby's highschool. half
of the lyrics are rumors Ethel heard. Ethel is jealous of her, she thinks that Holly has a
crush on willoughby, making her jealous and insecure even more. But instead of doing
anything she just sits and dwells on her jealousy. Holly fucks randoms in Holiday Inn, her
moms a druggie and her father tries to contain her..to no avail. One thing that stood out to
me is when it says "Nowhere to go, she's just along for the ride / She's Scared of nothing but the
passenger's side/ of some old man's truck in the dark parking lot / She's just tryna
feel good ight now / They wanna take her out / but no one ever wants to take her home" In a way I can relate to this, I feel like shes looking for attention through sex, trying
to feel loved through selling herself. She doesnt necessarily hates sex but she wants to
feel loved without having to fuck. "
She's got the radio blasting with her big white smile / Pretty baby with the miles / And
when she leaves, they never see her wiping her fuck me eyes " I might be biased because thats what I went through but I feel like she makes herself
look more than she is, but inside shes still the young girl begging for her mom to stop
getting high and play with her.
NETTLES OH MY GOD SCREAAMIONG this song is litterally me btw. It's about the beginning
stages of Ethel and Willoughby's relationship. she's scared of losing him, imagining his
death and all the ways he could potentially leave. Just wishing for the day they marry to
come soon, that all their petty arguments wouldnt happen when they're together. That if they
could only live together, far away from this small town, away from their family. She
believes that her insecurities are too much, that somebody will have to suffer her, before
being able to love her. She longs for that honeymoon phase, wanting that with willougby,
forever. I had the same relationship with my ex girlfriend, we'd run away to the fields
behind my house whenever omne (or both) of our family arguing. That when we would get older
me and her would marry and move somewhere far far away from the small christian church we
grew up with. I wanted to spend all my time with her, held close all the time, knowing that
I'm half of her. I'd get anxious, crying asking her to never leave me, she would tell me not
to worry, that one day we'd have a small house with her and me. She was always the more
mature one, worrying that if we truely did marry that either our families would kick us out
and not help us and how we were going to afford living together. But all of that worrying
came to an end, when the doctors truley did only gave her until the end of the night. she
passed away November 15th 2021. Time truley passes slower in the flicker of the hospital
light. At the end, I did lay her down where the trees lay low, putting her down gently where
the greenery stings.
I have no thoughts on willoughy's interlude besides the fact that it shot me 6 times in the
right leg when I listened to it the first time
DUST BOWL AAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHH tears coming out already. In the beginning it talks about
Willoughby's love towards her, taking her virginity and just admiring her beauty and taking
all of her in. Willoughby himself is, how I interpret, somebodyh that just wants his parents
back. He just wants to be loved but since both of his parents are gone and emotionally
unavailable it taught him at a young age that nobody truly loves him and cares enough to
stay.Grew up hard, fell off harder / cooking our brains smoking that shit your daddy smoked
in vietnam
In some cases people who have endured child abuse come out stronger, better, and healed.
However thats not what happened with Willoughby. He fell into drugs, hatred, and apathy.
Like an endless cycle trapped in a curse that was put upon his family. The line between
using love as an escape and true love, bleeds out like water color. They want eachother, not
for eachother, but as an replacement for eachothers parents. Willougby is the protective dad
that ethel never got. And Ethel is the emotionally available mother that Willoughby never
had.
I knew it was love / When I rode home crying / Thinking of you fucking other girls
Only love can hurt you that much, making you cry at one single thought. For me, love never
brought anything good to me. As soon as my partner makes me cry, I know I'm too far in. I
wonder if Willoughby ever cried over their relationship. For me, I tend to wall up and
become unavailable when hurt or in a situation that might hurt me, like love. But I dont
tell my partners. anyways, for me honestly I've just accepted that I'm too sensative for
love, that I get too hurt too fast, and my partner making me cry is normal at this point.
A Knock at the Door - I dont really like this song its fine but wtv..
Radio Towers - A tornado hits Shady Grove, those beeps sound like a heart monitor, as well
as a tornado alarm. Also storms are Willougby's worst fear, i think what ethel does during
this storm shows how shallow or deep she cares and understands willoughby
Tempest- So sad, so good, only song written from Willoughby's perspective. Ethel doesn't
understand willoughby, she understand the image she has created of him. she's acting like a
mother, suffocating willoughby with love. He wants to be independent, but ethel sees this as
him rejecting her love, as hate. He begs and begs for ethel to stop holding him up to the
standard Ethel sees him as, to see him as he really is. Does ethel love him for him, or for
who she thinks he is? She tries real hard to do what she thinks what he needs. Not
once asking or thinking about what he wants. Her love seems shallow to him, seems like the
surface level attempt of love like his mother that eventually, left him. Eventually this
argument makes Ethel leave, leaving him during the tornado that he's most scared of. Only
after leaving Willoughby curled up on the couch when it all got too loud, did she start to
feel regret. That is one of the biggest knife that could stab willoughby throughout their
relationship. Maybe willoughby never told ethel what he really wanted till now, but he
heavily implied it to her, wishing that maybe she would be able to pick up on it without him
having to destroy the perfect brick wall that he put up to protect the vulnerable young boy
inside. Or maybe Im just projecting.
waco texas - I never really understood this somng but a line that made me cry was
"I've been picking name for our children / you've been wondering how you're gonna feed
them / Love is not enough in this world / But I still believe in Nebraska Dreaming /
cause I'd rather die / Than be anything but your girl"
